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I promise you all I am not trying to confuse you.  I think I have thrown a few people off as I have been working with a new mesh head.

So I made the jump over to LeLutka recently.  I like the new head and I am still tweaking it to get the shape just right for me.  Its a very different look than I am used to, but its growing on me.  You will still see my Catwa head, and soon a Genus head, in some of my posts…so get used to some different looks here and there.

I’ve always been scared of trying new mesh heads, but then how often do we limit ourselves by fear in general?  Obviously, I spent a large part of my life denying myself an opportunity to just be happy being me because of fear.  To think I was in my mid-40’s before I finally found happiness is a scary thought…wouldn’t you agree?  No one should live that much of their life being unhappy.

I often think about that when I look back at people who have hurt me in my life.  I have come to realize that so many of those people are just unhappy.  I mean, people who are genuinely happy with themselves rarely, if ever, hurt others.  It goes to show how internal pain and a negative self image causes us to react towards others in our lives.

I will say that learning that lesson, that people in pain are the ones most likely to hurt another, has helped me greatly with forgiving those who hurt me.  I struggled with forgiveness for a long time because I always thought forgiving others was about them…and at that point in my life, I wasn’t going to give them the satisfaction of having received forgiveness.  But one of the great joys of growing personally and finding happiness and serenity within yourself is that you learn forgiving others helps you heal.  It helps you grow.  And you learn that not forgiving others takes far more energy than releasing the pain by forgiving them.

That’s why they say forgiveness is about the person who was hurt…not the person who caused the pain.

I hope we all are able to forgive those that hurt us as we move through our days.  Its not always easy, but letting go of that pain opens so many doors in our lives.  Its definitely worth it.

Oh!  One last thought on forgiveness.  When you start forgiving people for the pain they have caused you…make sure you forgive yourself too.  As many of us know, we can hurt ourselves more than any other human being can hurt us.

See it on Flickr.

What I’m Wearing

Accessories – Cae – Enamored Necklace
Body – Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
Eyes – The Face – Deep Eyes Pallet [@ Dubai]
Hair – Mina – Brianna [@ Uber]
Head & Ears – Catwa Catya
Make Up – The Face – Couture Eye Shadow Pallet & Wet Lipstick Make Up Pallet (Group Gift)
Shape – Custom – Not for sale.
Skin – Not Found – Piper Skin Bronze

Lyrium – Portrait 7 Mirror

2 Comments Add yours

  1. Katie McKenzie says:

    Tiffy! I have been using the LeLutka head since my first mesh experiment. I’ve dabbled with the Catwa and LAQ heads but they’ve never impressed me the same way. I ♥ my LeLutka 🙂

    As for forgiveness, that’s a toughie. There are 1 or 2 people in my past who I still carry grudges against, but it’s mostly because they said very hurtful, personal things. I don’t hate them, I’m just angry even today. I won’t go into it here, but I’m still not to a place where forgiveness is on the table. Maybe someday, I don’t know, but it will require a dialog with them first. I don’t want to unilaterally just shrug it all off. I wouldn’t feel right.


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    1. *hugs you tight* Forgiveness is not easy….I don’t care how much we work on it. Somethings just hit us to hard and some times, we find it easier at that time to hold onto things. There are still a couple of people in my own life I struggle to forgive, so you are not alone. Hopefully, we can all get there one day. ♥

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