I could write a novel tonight about the day I’ve had. I’m not going to…primarily because I don’t have the energy to write that much. Besides, I don’t think you all want to hear about it all.
Let’s just say I had one of the most humiliating days at work today…and totally feel thrown under the bus. I’m just going to leave it at that.
Making it home tonight was such a gift. I opened a bottle of wine after I got home and have been trying to unwind. It hasn’t been easy. I am still pretty keyed up. Hopefully, maybe, I will settle down enough to be able to get a decent night of sleep tonight.
Thankfully, I am off tomorrow. I am going to do everything I can to relax and shut out work for the day. I have to. I have to find a way to not feel utterly burnt out and resentful towards work. Even though the job search continues, I still have to make sure I have a job.
Funny thing is…I am at the point now of not caring what happens in the office at work whenever I am able to find a new job. At this point, I just want out of there and if the whole fucking thing falls apart and burns…so be it. They have pushed and pushed for so long…and I literally have nothing left to give.
Honestly…I hate feeling this way. Its not who I am and I hate that they have been able to impact my work and passions so much.
I just need to out…and sooner rather than later…
See it on Flickr.
Foxcity – Juice 4 & Cup Prop (Left arm adjustment with Animare)
Beach Dune 2
Beach Dune 3