Is anyone else hearing ZZ Top singing right now?
Last night, as I was finishing my edit of this picture, I shared it with a couple of friends to get their opinion on the shot. There is a part of me that still often second guesses my work and I am fortunate enough to have this small circle of friends who I can share a picture with and they will give me their honest opinion on it. On of my friends said all she could hear was that song when she saw it…which lead to a total change in title for the picture.
Nothing wrong with the change in title though. It kind of fits with some of what is going on in my life.
I have written over the past few weeks that I have been looking at some gender affirming surgeries. Well, when I was meeting with on of the plastic surgeons to see what was possible, the discussion of my voice and whether or not I would want any surgical procedures done with my Adam’s Apple were discussed. What a lot of people don’t realize is that those who would assault someone transitioning male to female will often look at someone’s Adam’s Apple first if they suspect the person may be transitioning and so it is something we tend to be very self conscious about. Also, many people will key in on someone’s voice to try and determine their gender assigned at birth.
As it turns out, my hospital has an ENT surgeon who specializes in gender affirming surgeries on the Larynx, or Adam’s Apple. I got a referral to her and was able to get an appointment for this morning. The doctor, like so many I have worked with on this journey was amazing. The plastic surgeon who gave me so much information had called the ENT doctor personally to discuss my case. When the doctor came in to see me today, it was all feminine pronouns and using my new name…which shocked me but meant the world to me. we talked for a bed and she managed to get a camera into my throat to see how things looked on the inside of my throat.
The good news is we don’t believe I will need surgery on my larynx. Mine is actually smaller than the doctor expected and the long term success of larynx shaving on someone’s voice has never really been documented. Even better news is my hospital has hired a Speech Therapist who is specially trained in helping transitioning individuals achieve the voice of their identified gender with a focus less on pitch, which really can’t be changed for me at this point, and more on inflection, tone and cadence of speech. Additionally, this doctor has found a way to make these sessions with the Speech Therapist get approved by insurance despite it not being covered by our company’s medical plan.
All of that news shocked me, in a good way, of course. I was even more shocked when I got a call this afternoon informing me they have an opening for me this Thursday. So let the voice training begin!
With all that is going on, this is another bright spot and couldn’t come at a better time considering the weight my gender dysphoria has put on me recently. I really needed this news and, selfishly, it helped add a little more luster to my birthday.
So I start speech therapy on Thursday. I also have appointments with two plastic surgeons next week. On Monday, I will meet with the plastic surgery fellow about having some other gender affirming surgeries lumped in with my eyelid surgery. On Wednesday, I meet with the plastic surgeon who will be working on my eyelids and, unbeknownst to him, helped find a way to help make several of these other surgeries possible.
I do have to laugh though. When I was talking with one of my doctors about these surgeries, he was talking about the extremes some people will go to with affirming procedures. He talking about all sorts of implants and tucks for almost every part of the body. It was really crazy! He even mentioned people getting thigh and calf implants.
No thanks on the legs. I played soccer for many years and despite the concerns and dysphoria I have with some parts of my body…I do love my legs! 😉
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