Even though I had a week off work in October, I swear I don’t feel like I got a chance to breath…until just the past few days.
October ended up being a crazy month for me. Along with just being exhausted from work, it was one of my craziest months blogging wise since I first started. I made several new teams and, along with that, had three seasonal events going on at the same time. Throw in the fact that I personally feel like I struggle to blog Halloween at times…I was just wiped once November 1st got here.
It’s interesting though…whether it’s blogging, real life work or whatever other obligations you can think of, its amazing how fast things can get crazy on you without you even realizing it. That certainly happened to me last month and I honestly have had to take a few days just to breath since the month wrapped up.
I have to give a shout out to my friends who were sweet enough to do collabs with me and who helped talk me through those moments of self doubt though. I know on more than one occasion, friends of mine got the panicked, “I can’t do this!” message from me. I swear I think a couple of them would have reached through the computer and strangled me if they could have. lol But they all helped keep me sane as I pushed through the month.
There is one thing from October I do want to talk about that I have sat on for bit. Mostly because I didn’t really know what to say at the time…
At The BVN Bloggies on October 23rd, I received the award for Best LGBTQ+ Blogger. I want to start off by thanking everyone who voted for me in any category, but especially this one. I want to thank all of you because, writing about this journey is not always easy. As I have shared before, its easy to want to hide things and only share the good parts. Its easy to steer away from the topic of my transition if I choose to. Its easy to write about the easy topics and ignore anything that gives the image of being born in the body I was born in. It would be easy to glamorize it all if I want to…or to write as though my whole life was falling apart because of this journey.
Yet so many of you…you give me strength. So many of you have supported me and helped me at so many points. When we are in SL, its easy to try to avoid RL and live this digital life where we have the perfect bodies and no one can actually see if we are over or underweight, if we haven’t showered, if we look so incredibly different than we appear in world…or if our assigned sex doesn’t match the bodies we have chosen for SL. I know I could easily remove the fact I am transitioning from my profile. I could easily take down any blog post that references my transition and leave it as some distant memory.
But so many of you have helped me to find a voice. So many of you have put up with my writing and Facebook posts. So many of you have comforted me and supported me. So many of you have encouraged me to keep writing and to keep sharing, even the things I don’t want to share. So many of you have encouraged me to just keep being authentic. I couldn’t keep writing like I do if it weren’t for all of you.
Receiving this award is a direct result of all of you and the support you have given not just me, but the support you have given every other transitioning individual…every person who has disclosed they were homosexual or bisexual…every member of the LGBTQ+ community. It’s because all of you have helped so many of us feel that we can be open about who we are. No matter who won this award, and all of those nominated are amazing bloggers, the creation of this award at The Bloggies was incredibly special for all of us in the LGBTQ community.
Being selected by all of you for this award, especially in its first presentation, is very humbling and an incredible honor.
I can’t thank you all enough. ♥
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