I’m not going to write much today. It’s been a chaotic day at work and so my brain is a bit of a mess right now.
One thing has been on my mind lately though and I’ll just comment on that real quick.
One of my friends keeps reminding me that good things are in store for me in the near future. She says she feels it in her soul. I’m not quite sure I believe he just yet but I know a lot of that is me being in my own head.
For as wonderful as my journey of transition has been, its also been incredibly frustrating at times. The waiting and delays. The hormones not taking like expected. The struggles to get a proper wardrobe together. The cost of surgeries being higher than expected. It’s just been…so much at times.
I keep trying to remind myself that these hard times and struggles will help me to better appreciate the world seeing me as the real me when I’m finally able to do that full time. Logically, I believe that. Emotionally…it’s a struggle. And as we enter the holiday season and what all that means for me without family around…well…
I’m holding on to that believe that I will appreciate showing the world the real me more when that times gets here.
I have to. Otherwise, I think I might crumble at times.
See it on Flickr.
What I’m Wearing
Cae – Zara Bracelet, Earrings, Necklace & Ring [@ FaMESHed]
Dead Dollz – Mila Shorts & Sweater [@ Uber]
N-Core – Kelda
Stealthic – Plush
Body – Maitreya – Lara
Head – LeLutka – Korina
Shape – Custom
Skin – Glam Affair – Lenora
Diversion – Cold Days 5 [@ Belle]