When I’m Bad, I’m Better

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I’ve spent so much of my life worried about how others perceive me.

Whether its been my family, what people thought of me when I didn’t graduate college on time, professionally, my gender identity issues…whatever it has been, I have spent so much time and energy worried about how others viewed me.

It’s fucking exhausting.

The same happened to me with blogging, my photos, etc.

While I have blogged different mesh heads, I would always leave my body in the same proportions.  Everything had become this stock version of myself.  Not that I haven’t liked my look.  I have.  It reflects a lot of parts of myself and has been the look that I call “home,” so to speak.

While I was on my blogging vacation though, I decided to play with my look some.  I did some different things and, honestly, I had a lot of fun with it.  I got off my platform and met people.  I explored the grid some.  I did things I hadn’t done in years on the grid.

I have always admired those bloggers who change their looks so much in the blogs.  I used to watch them and think, “I wish I could do that too…” but always felt like I couldn’t.  I mean, here I am in RL transitioning, changing EVERYTHING about myself, and I and grown timid at the thought of altering my look in SL on a daily basis.

Between finally buying the Genus head recently and Lelutka preparing to  release a new batch of mesh heads, I think I am going to explore some different looks both around the grid and here in my blog.  I mean, part of shooting for the FaMESHed X team was opening myself up and letting a part of me out in my photography.  So I figure between just coming off my vacation and X opening today, what better time to start trying some different things?  Besides…isn’t part of the fun in SL being able to change our look at the drop of a hat?

This should be really interesting…

See it on Flickr.

What I’m Wearing
Argrace – Saki
Carol G – Gallica Rose Tattoo
Midna – Nalu Harness – Red [@ FaMESHed X]
PUNCH – Hearts Nipple Piercing
Swan – Santa’s Choker Red [@ FaMESHed X]

Body – Maitreya – Lara
Head – Genus Project – Classic
Shape – Custom
Skin – L’Etre – Zoe Golden

Diversion – Main Attraction 5

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