I’m just going to put it out there…I am in a mood today. Maybe it’s that time of the month for me. Maybe I am just feeling pushed a bit far. Maybe it’s a combination of the two. Who knows. All I know is I have been snippy all day.
I know part of the problem is work. I haven’t hidden from any of you that I’m just tired of and burnt out on work. The crazy thing is, that really saddens me to be like this because I actually enjoy having a job and going to work, as a routine and wanting to feel like I am doing something positive for others. Not that I don’t wish I could retire or suddenly become independently wealthy (HA!!!)…but even then, I am the type who would still have a job. I would just shift jobs into something I enjoyed more. But I would still want to work. Maybe I’m an oddball in the respect.
But even with things at work, I have been in a mood today. Right now, for anyone that wants to jump my case about anything, I just want to say to all of them, “Get in line. My give a damn is busted right now so if you want anything to happen…you best get in line and watch your tone if you want something done.” Yeah…the bitch was out today.
I do know that as I have gotten older, I have just quit caring about a lot of things the way I used to. Well, I guess I shouldn’t say I don’t care. It’s more I am trying to let go of the things I can’t control so I can put my energy into the things I can control. Not always an easy thing to do. And I will admit…it’s gotten harder to do on this journey. Between wanting to already be post op and and the mood swings (yes, I get “a period” and no, don’t say I can’t. Hormones are hormones and I have my own cycle…), it really tests my patience with the things I can’t control. Throw in a personal slight/attack when t’s that time…I swear I grow fangs and my nails grow by three inches suddenly. It’s not pretty…
I’m hoping having this weekend off and a couple of good nights of sleep will help with this mood. Otherwise, I may be calling some of y’all asking for bail money. LOL
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