A Few Rays Of Sunlight Can Sustain Us For Days


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I feel like all I do these days is complain.  As I look at the world around me though, I am emotionally exhausted right now.  As if we haven’t had enough turmoil and chaos in the world over the past three to five months, another bomb was dropped on minorities last night.  And, for me, this one kicked me square in the chest.

Yesterday was the anniversary of the Pulse Nightclub shooting.  It was a day that was a painful reminder for those of us in the LGBTQ community of the violence often perpetrated against us.  It was a reminder that so many in today’s world still view many of us as less because of who we love and how we identify with regards to our gender.  It was a reminder of the hate that still festers in the world just because we are…”different.”

So why is it that a certain leader in the US choose that day, of all days, to sign an executive order rolling back basic civil rights for the LGBTQ population?

In my life, as I have watched the world change around me, I have seen many times where civil rights were not progressed for a marginalized group.  But never, never in all my life have a I seen civil rights scaled back in this manner.  Yes, there have been the laws passed to limit abortion rights for women, but these battles inevitably have been quashed by the Supreme Court thanks to Roe v Wade.

But thus far, with regards to LGBTQ rights, especially transgender rights, the US Supreme Court has refused to take a stand on the issue.  Every time the Supreme Court has had the opportunity to take a stand and say that transgender people are human beings who deserve equal rights, they have kicked the cases back down to the lower courts.  Every time they have had the opportunity to validate our existence and say we are human beings and not some abomination, they refuse to hear the case.

Additionally, Congress has refused to push the issue.  With so many politicians constantly being worried about their 20 second clip on a 24 hour news network and being fearful of not upsetting their base, they have refused to do the decent thing and acknowledge our existence as normal human beings.

Because these two bodies of government refuse to push for true equality for all, the man currently sitting in the White House feels emboldened to scale back the rights myself and 1.4 million other Americans (and this is a VERY conservative estimate, btw, since they refuse to allow us to identify as transgender on the US Census).  We have been rejected, bullied, beaten, lost our homes and jobs, denied medical care and basically treated as less than human.

I recognize that in the grand scheme of things, I am incredibly fortunate on my journey.  I have a job with a company that supports my decision to live my truth.  I have health care at, at the minimum, pays for my mental health care, hormone replacement therapy and sexual reassignment surgery.  I own my own home.  I am well educated.  I have a more support than I ever imagined.  The problem though is that most transgender Americans are not so fortunate.

I’ll be honest, I haven’t been able to control my tears since I read this news last night.  I had actually hoped to post this photo last night but I couldn’t even write because I was crying so much.  Had it not been for friends reaching out, letting me vent and being those rays of hope in my life…I have no idea what kind of shape I would be in this morning.

While I have always tried to keep politics out of my blog due to the firestorm of conflict it can bring, I can no longer do it as it relates to…that man.  He needs to go.  He cares nothing about anyone other than himself.  He has failed to properly respond to the Black Lives Matter movement.  He scheduled one campaign rally in Tulsa on the anniversary of a brutal attack on a black neighborhood there.  He has scheduled his acceptance speech at the RNC on the anniversary of another attack on black Americans in Jacksonville.

And now…now he chooses the anniversary of the Pulse Nightclub shooting to deny so many like me basic medical care and equal protections under the law for 1.4 million Americans.  He has given a group of people cart blanch to discriminate, attack and marginalize a group of people who currently have no true protections under federal law.

And honestly…it has left me so emotionally exhausted that I am struggling…more than I have in a long, long time.

I want to thank all of you who have stood by me and support myself and others on our journeys.  Thank you for being those rays of sunshine on the cloudiest of days.  Thank you for giving people like myself hope that better days are ahead.  Thank you for seeing me and others trying to live their truth as human beings.

Thank you for letting me lean on you and giving me support on days like today…days where I truly struggle to hold myself up.  I love you all. ♥

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One Comment Add yours

  1. Katie McKenzie says:

    Please know that the majority of Americans support LGBTQ rights, contrary to what the R’s are claiming. The problems are several: gerrymandering, for one; conservative states that continually elect regressives even when they don’t actually serve the needs of their constituents; and, lastly, apathy in a time of national crisis. I like to believe that the outpouring of anger we’ve seen in the past couple of weeks are the harbinger of sweeping changes, mainly in the legal system. True or not, I refuse to accept that most of us haven’t dealt on a personal level with family members who came out — such an event has a way of altering perceptions because now, it’s personal. I, for one, am not giving up on voting and protesting in favor of LGBTQ rights right alongside Black Lives, minority rights, and so forth. I may die before there’s any global changes but all I can do is all I can do – and support my friends. Like you. ♥

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