AND SHE WRITES!!!!
So, yeah…I have some things to write about tonight. Call me inspired. There is a lot going on here and I guess I both want and need to pass some things along to those of you who follow my blog. I think I have one or two friends out there that are probably frustrated with me for not sharing more lately. I only say that because I know they read here to find out what is actually going on with me. I am sure the rest of you would rather stick with the music lyrics. 😉 😛
So, first things first…I have like two blog posts to finish this week to meet some deadlines. Aside from that though, I will be on blogger vacation for the entire month of September. Along with taking September off from blogging, I am also taking four weeks off from work. And no, you don’t need to check your eyes or my typing. You read that right. After working for over a year and half without any real time off, I will be off work in RL from September 9th through October 8th. No work. No email. No calls. A complete and total break from the office.
Now, while I am going to be taking the break from work and blogging, that doesn’t mean that I won’t have a lot going on in RL. I actually will have quite a bit going on here.
Do you remember that eye surgery I have been putting off for forever and a day? It’s finally happening! My surgery is scheduled and will be happening on September 10th. Along with having my eyelids and brows raised, the doctor will also be shaping my eyelids and brows to give them a more feminine shape. I had hoped to possibly have breast implants done as well, but I just wasn’t able to save up enough for those just yet. Maybe in a year or so. I was able to save up enough to have some fat grafting done to my face though. So along with the brow and eyelid work, I will also be having my cheeks and jawline rounded out and softened some…along with some grafting done to my lips to help them be a bit fuller. While I can’t afford, nor do I really want bone work done…this should soften my appearance significantly and give me a much more feminine appearance in my daily life. Hopefully…this little bit of work will just help me feel more congruent looking in the mirror and not feeling like I need make up every time I step out of the house.
So what does all this mean in the grand scheme of things?
It means that all of that time waiting to live as the real me, full time, day in and day out is here.
I’ve been working feverishly with my boss to get everything lined up at work so that when I return to work on October 9th, I will be returning to the office as Madison Tiffany Watkins. My legal name change paperwork has been submitted to the courts here. Tomorrow or Wednesday, I will be going by the state department of vital records to have my gender marker changed on my birth certificate. My boss and I are already coordinating with human resources. The order has been submitted to change my computer logins and email address. The ID office has already been told to expect me to come in for a new ID in late September. I have been having phone calls with our chief officers and many of our VPs, directors and committee chairs I work with regularly to inform them of what’s coming. HR is working on a broader communication to the hospital. I am the first person at this level to transition…so HR has kind of been caught off guard and is having to rethink some plans…but they have taken accountability and said they would get it done…
The support I have been receiving has shocked me. Not that I didn’t expect people at work to be open, but the words of support have left me crying more than once. I have had so many people give me their personal cell numbers and make me promise to call them if I needed anything…personally or professionally…as I go through this. A couple of the calls I had today literally left me in tears.
It’s weird. I have been waiting soooooooo long to reach this point and, well…now it’s hear. I am on the cusp of beginning my new life as me. As I told my boss today, I am both so anxious and ready that I can’t contain myself…and so scared that I want to crawl into a hole and hide. But in the end, we know I won’t hide. I can’t. I need this too badly to crawl into any hole and hide.
And with that, I want to first say thank you, to all of you. Without your support, I would never have made it to this point. Without all of you…I probably would have given up and, honestly, wouldn’t be here anymore. Without all of you…well…let’s just not think about that.
So yeah, September is the beginning of my new life in a lot of ways. I love the fact that my facial surgery will be on my birthday…making my birthday also a day of rebirth for me.
While I won’t be doing any official blog posts in September, I may make a couple of posts regarding my recovery from surgery only because I have a small group of friends who follow me here but do not utilize Facebook. I certainly don’t want to leave them waiting until October to find out how everything went.
So I know at least one more post will be coming for FaMESHed X, but aside from that, nothing but maybe a surgery update or two until October. Please continue to take care of yourselves. Continue to be kind to one another. Continue to give with your heart. Stay healthy.
It’s my wish for all of you who have given so much to me. ♥
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